its this dead weight inside me that's pulling me down. it's all the tears that these smiles are covering up for. its still painful its almost surreal, this feeling of betrayal. it makes me want to seek comfort in freedom.
but thank you Allah for letting special people in my life. people like sarah, farah and liza. and of course my darling farhan. and for allowing me to meet true inspirations like kak aishah. it's amazing how one moment u don't know a person and the next u do and feel so touched by their presence.
its artificial this world. you wish everything was perfect and happy and no one stabs you in the back or breaks ur heart into millions and everything'd go ur way. but shit happens. and ive learnt to deal with it. but i juz wish it'd stop haunting me. a big thank you to sarah for your comforting words and kindness and for having my back. ure the perfect friend. =)
on a more lighthearted note, I MISS SCHOOL!! like really. i cant wait to have lunch dates with everyone and mugging real badly and using my funky pencilboxes!! way cool. haha. oh and i absolutely can't wait for my commencement which insyaAllah will be 2 yrs away. my grad robe will be dark blue with gold!! and taking hundreds of photos and looking pretty! =p way cool. being in camp made me, for the first time, quite proud of being malay. haha =p orites until my next entry this is the lovely izean saying peace! =p
